Kvari.

2009-05-09T19:14:00.001-07:00

I'm being a little irrational, which is very out of character--as well as something I don't like (likely because it's out of character). So I meet this guy whom I should have met way before (seeing how he was the roommate of a good friend) my last night of the semester in Vermont. Don't know why I'm so attracted to him, but I am. I think it might be his incredible charisma--but whatever it is, I want to be around him. But I can't be, because here I am on the other side of the country. What could be worse timing? And then I'll only be in Burlington for three weeks this summer, and I don't know if I'll be able to see him. Then I'm off to Austria for the year... He's going to be in Dublin for the first semester, though, so maybe I'll see him?

All the while I don't know if he even wants to see me again. Ugh, I am not used to this position. Not having the power being what I mean. That's a problem--I'm so accustomed to having the power in a relationship. It's probably good for me not to have said power every once in a while.

Anyway, Sonoma on Thursday! Yay. That's good, seeing how I'm insanely bored and have only been home for three days.

I'm also recovering from a very unpleasant sunburn. That'll teach me!

2009-05-03T18:19:00.000-07:00

I really am not ever happy in one place for very long. I've lived in three different places in the past four years, and am heading off somewhere else again come the fall.

Yes, places feel like home, but apparently never enough for me to want to stay there forever.

That being said, I need it to be two nights from tonight. I really, really do.

Wow.

2009-04-25T18:20:00.000-07:00

The situations I get myself into. Honestly, I swear my life has become a stupid TV drama... Totally unintentionally. I guess that's what happens when you get a little drunk and are surrounded by guys.

Anyway, last night may have topped it. Me with a guy my roommate likes, while said guy's roommate likes me. All four of us at the same party. Ack I hate myself some times. And it sucks, because I shouldn't have been attracted to him, so I don't know why I was. But I like him, even though I know he's probably bad news.

What. The. Heck. I need this summer now, just so I can get away from everything I seem to have gotten myself into. Too bad so much stands in between right now and May 6th.

Post-St. Patrick's Day

2009-03-19T16:00:00.000-07:00

Hope it was swell for everyone. :)

2008-02-13T12:28:00.001-08:00

Happy almost-Valentine's Day!

:)

2008.

2008-01-05T22:56:00.001-08:00

New Year = Fresh Start.

Think about it.

Sometimes...

2007-11-26T17:39:00.001-08:00

You just have to take a break from work and do something that relaxes you, that you enjoy, to save your sanity--even if it means giving up some time to study, or work, or do whatever it was you were doing to start with.

This isn't dead.

2007-10-07T10:27:00.001-07:00

I'm not gone completely.

2007-07-23T10:29:00.001-07:00

"Use it up, wear it out, make it do, or do without."

2007-03-27T16:52:00.000-07:00

The Starfish Story

by Loren Eisley, adapted from The Star Thrower

Once upon a time, there was a wise man who used to go to the ocean to do his writing.He had a habit of walking on the beach before he began his work.

One day, as he was walking along the shore, he looked down the beach and saw a human figure moving like a dancer. He smiled to himself at the thought of someone who would dance to the day, and so, he walked faster to catch up.

As he got closer, he noticed that the figure was that of a young man, and that what he was doing was not dancing at all. The young man was reaching down to the shore, picking up small objects, and throwing them into the ocean.

He came closer still and called out "Good morning! May I ask what it is that you are doing?"

The young man paused, looked up, and replied "Throwing starfish into the ocean."

"I must ask, then, why are you throwing starfish into the ocean?" asked the somewhat startled wise man.

To this, the young man replied, "The sun is up and the tide is going out. If I don't throw them in, they'll die."

Upon hearing this, the wise man commented, "But, young man, do you not realize that there are miles and miles of beach and there are starfish all along every mile? You can't possibly make a difference!"

At this, the young man bent down, picked up yet another starfish, and threw it into the ocean. As it met the water, he said, "It made a difference for that one."

http://muttcats.com/starfish.htm

2007-03-07T14:47:00.000-08:00

Finding your personal legend is about following your dreams -- the only thing that can stop you is the fear of failure.

2007-02-10T14:32:00.001-08:00

Why can't life just be full of carefree fun and loving laughter?

2007-02-02T17:56:00.000-08:00

The following sentence is true. The preceding sentence is false.

...clever? I think so.

2007-01-12T18:36:00.000-08:00

The only, ONLY thing we need is tolerance.

2006-12-31T14:34:00.000-08:00

"The world is a comedy to those who think and a tragedy to those who feel."
-Horace Walpole

Way to live.

2006-12-30T21:36:00.000-08:00

Fear less, hope more
eat less, chew more,
whine less,
breathe more,
talk less, say more,
hate less, love more,
and all good things are yours.

2006-12-09T15:30:00.000-08:00

if strangers meet
life beings-
not poor not rich
(only aware)
kind neither
nor cruel
(only complete)
i not not you
not possible;
only truthful
-truthfully,once
if strangers(who
deep our most are
selves)touch:
forever

(and so to dark)

e.e. Cummings