I'm being a little irrational, which is very out of character--as well as something I don't like (likely because it's out of character). So I meet this guy whom I should have met way before (seeing how he was the roommate of a good friend) my last night of the semester in Vermont. Don't know why I'm so attracted to him, but I am. I think it might be his incredible charisma--but whatever it is, I want to be around him. But I can't be, because here I am on the other side of the country. What could be worse timing? And then I'll only be in Burlington for three weeks this summer, and I don't know if I'll be able to see him. Then I'm off to Austria for the year... He's going to be in Dublin for the first semester, though, so maybe I'll see him?

All the while I don't know if he even wants to see me again. Ugh, I am not used to this position. Not having the power being what I mean. That's a problem--I'm so accustomed to having the power in a relationship. It's probably good for me not to have said power every once in a while.

Anyway, Sonoma on Thursday! Yay. That's good, seeing how I'm insanely bored and have only been home for three days.

I'm also recovering from a very unpleasant sunburn. That'll teach me!

I really am not ever happy in one place for very long. I've lived in three different places in the past four years, and am heading off somewhere else again come the fall.

Yes, places feel like home, but apparently never enough for me to want to stay there forever.

That being said, I need it to be two nights from tonight. I really, really do.

Wow.

The situations I get myself into. Honestly, I swear my life has become a stupid TV drama... Totally unintentionally. I guess that's what happens when you get a little drunk and are surrounded by guys.

Anyway, last night may have topped it. Me with a guy my roommate likes, while said guy's roommate likes me. All four of us at the same party. Ack I hate myself some times. And it sucks, because I shouldn't have been attracted to him, so I don't know why I was. But I like him, even though I know he's probably bad news.

What. The. Heck. I need this summer now, just so I can get away from everything I seem to have gotten myself into. Too bad so much stands in between right now and May 6th.

Post-St. Patrick's Day

Hope it was swell for everyone. :)

Happy almost-Valentine's Day!

:)

2008.

New Year = Fresh Start.


Think about it.

Sometimes...

You just have to take a break from work and do something that relaxes you, that you enjoy, to save your sanity--even if it means giving up some time to study, or work, or do whatever it was you were doing to start with.