9.5.09

I'm being a little irrational, which is very out of character--as well as something I don't like (likely because it's out of character). So I meet this guy whom I should have met way before (seeing how he was the roommate of a good friend) my last night of the semester in Vermont. Don't know why I'm so attracted to him, but I am. I think it might be his incredible charisma--but whatever it is, I want to be around him. But I can't be, because here I am on the other side of the country. What could be worse timing? And then I'll only be in Burlington for three weeks this summer, and I don't know if I'll be able to see him. Then I'm off to Austria for the year... He's going to be in Dublin for the first semester, though, so maybe I'll see him?

All the while I don't know if he even wants to see me again. Ugh, I am not used to this position. Not having the power being what I mean. That's a problem--I'm so accustomed to having the power in a relationship. It's probably good for me not to have said power every once in a while.

Anyway, Sonoma on Thursday! Yay. That's good, seeing how I'm insanely bored and have only been home for three days.

I'm also recovering from a very unpleasant sunburn. That'll teach me!

3.5.09

I really am not ever happy in one place for very long. I've lived in three different places in the past four years, and am heading off somewhere else again come the fall.

Yes, places feel like home, but apparently never enough for me to want to stay there forever.

That being said, I need it to be two nights from tonight. I really, really do.